I wonder.

I wonder if anyone reads this. I'm not good at this whole blog thing. My life has become a series of 140 character twitter updates. haha.

So this is what's been going on in the life of Sarah Ng.

Now that I'm free text books and enter the world of paying back student loans, I have learned that I don't have as much free time as I thought I would. All the projects I said I would get too have gone undone. I finally graduated with a Bachelor of Arts in Music. (I switch from Music Ed and am still wondering if it was a good choice)

I'm working from my apartment now. Ohio is not happening now. My boss moved out there, but from what I understand is that I don't have to move. Which is a blessing, I've gotten more involved with Harvest and gotten closer to my family that lives in Reno.

I'm playing guitar more. It's good! I've had my guitar for almost 4 years now and it's about time that I start learning to play it. I play it for my bible study on Tuesday nights and for Youth Group, and I'm far from being able to lead worship on it. It's amazing how God works, I'm learning guitar but in the process of learning I'm also reaching out and showing the Youth Group kids how to play too. So in a way God is still using me to Teach Music.

I've been going to Young Adults too, and it's nice to actually have a group of friends that have a strong foundation in their beliefs. I guess what I mean is, it's nice to be around a group of 20 somethings that aren't going out getting drunk, cussing, or trying to be better than people. We are starting to meet on Saturdays, which is great in my book cause it keeps people from getting into trouble.

I'm still struggling with stuff of the world, but it's been getting better. Something I don't want to let go, like certain friends and activities but I'm getting there. As for relationships, I'm still struggling with it. It's hard sometimes being around people who are 4 to 5 years younger than me that are already married and have babies, but at the same time I know I'm not ready for that chapter of life.

I'm still hoping for a great Christian guy that God has set aside for me. hm... that's another post. The kind of guy I'm waiting for. I'll have to share it with some of the youth girls. haha.

Showing Love.

Today I kind of wish I was in Reno. To be apart of a group of people from all groups that are joining together to show a group of misled Christians love. 

Fred Phelps from Westboro Baptist Church (www.godhatesfags.com) is coming to Reno to protest the GSA Summit at UNR. They have been on UNR's campus before where they yelled hateful words to passing students, telling them, "God Hates You" "God Hates Reno" "You are all sinners!" Many Renoites remember the hateful protest WBC staged at the memorial service for Brianna Dennison, in front of South Reno Baptist, and on campus. 

It's sad, I'm wondering if this is the same group that Brody Harper ran into in Baton Rouge. They were protesting in front of a venue that was hosting The Rock & Worship Road Show a Christian Concert. Yelling at the Christians telling they were evil and sinners and bad examples for going to a Christian rock concert!

Continuing on!

I'm failing at this blog again, oops!

So a few weeks ago I went to a Searchfest PDX in Portland for work. I sat in on some interesting and seminars. One being on blogging, a main thing to do is find a niche and stick with it. I'm still not sure what my niche should be. Let alone being any good at this blogging game. 

Lately I've been getting more involved with stuff. I'm excited about helping out more with my church's youth group. Especially after going on the snowboarding trip with them. This August they are going on a mission trip to San Francisco and I'm so proud of them and excited to be there for them as they prepare their hearts and minds for this challenging step of their lives. They will be working with inner city kids, street witnessing, and in soup kitchens. 

I've also have been putting forth more effort to learn the guitar. It's taken me 4 years to do it, but now I finally have the time to focus on it. It was hard when I was in school since I had to put in 6 hours of practice a week each on the clarinet and piano. (someday I will teach music) I'm really enjoying playing the guitar cause it's a new outlet to worship God. 

Taking a Break

Sometimes its good to just take a break from people, and be by yourself. 

I think I'm going to break communications for a while and not really talk to people and just focus on God and the things I need to do to set my heart right. 

Old Messages

So I'm going through and cleaning out my myspace inbox and here are some interesting things I'm findings.

I use to have a disclaimer about how I want to be friends with people who genuinely want to be my friend, not another Asian chick to add to this list. Yeah saw a few messages from random guys asking to be my friend and their friend list is all half naked Asians. I laughed.

Then there's messages like this

ng a ling, kinda like ring a ding. haha all well. hi

HAHAHA

I gave advice that I need to hear now. 

Hey! So today at church the sermon was about relationships and marriage it made me think of you and I decided to share. 

I got a lot out of this sermon, because I tend to want a boyfriend more than God at times, and so it was really helpful to me.

It was based off of 1 Corinthians 7. 
The main points of the talk was that
1. You should marry/be in a relationship with only a fellow believer (2 Cor. 6:14)
2. You should Marry/ be in a relationship with someone who feels the same way you do about God (Your passions, purpose and calling) Just because they are Christian (or claim to be)- Doesn't mean they are a good/God match
3. They should compliment you and be a help in fulfilling your God-Given calling.
4. You should be ready to accept the responsibilities and added concerns that go with Marriage/Relationship.

Singleness isn't a disease. Find out what God is calling you to do before finding that person to be with. Find that person that has the same passions as you. Find the person that compliments you, the person that helps you to be the person you both want to be together. 

Have patience. God will bring the person he has picked out for you someday.

I learned that when I was having Identity problems with going on a mission trip and having my parents permission without dishonoring them some of my non christians friends stepped up with advice that was quite meaning full. 

Alright, I may not be the best Christian, and sometimes I wonder even if I am anymore, but here goes... When God asked Moses to talk to Pharaoh to let the Hebrews leave Egypt, he complained, "Who am I to go to Pharaoh?" Moses was also risking possible death to appear before Pharaoh, but God was with him. Even though he had to keep trying, he eventually succeeded because God was with him. I know God is with you you Sarah, you're an amazing girl, I'm sure if you ask God to soften your Parents heart, or help them understand, I'm sure they'll say yes. I hope this has been helpful. See ya at practice....

It was more helpful than what some of my Christians friends told me. 

I Suck at Snowboarding.

This weekend was amazing. I love working with youth kids. Maybe it's because I wish I was still 18. It started out a little crazy though. At first I wasn't sure if I was needed to rent a 15 passenger van or to drive my car. We didn't do either.

We ended up having a 5 car caravan, where we all manage to get lost or separated some how. For me, it would not have be a road trip is there weren't a few u-turns made haha!



Friday was a fun night of games, fellowship, and worship. I played the guitar and led worship, it was the first time I did that by myself. I'm use to having my friend Mikey play with me. I totally freaked out and messed up my first song. After that I was ok. :D

Tanner did a lesson on worship, which was really good it seemed like the kids were really listening to him. Then it was time for the boys and girls to separate to their ends of the condo we were staying in. It was so much fun playing games and getting to know the girls. We played Christian Blurt where a girl named Kayla kicked our butts.

Then it was early up to make breakfast, have some quite time reading James 4, and a mini talk about James 4. Then it was mayhem getting all the people ready to go in the cars and then off to Diamond peak!



It was good we were surprisingly organized when it came to getting the rental gear and to the lessons. I went with the girls for our lesson where we had Andrew (who was pretty!) as our teacher and I totally ate it. I wasn't really trying though, but I'm not going to lie I sucked! It's been a while since I've skateboarded and I couldn't get comfortable with the board cause of my bad left ankle and bad right knee.



In the end though it was so much fun! I rolled my way down the beginners hill. I'm sore mainly on my right side and I got to know some of the youth kids. They are awesome. I hope I can continue to be apart of their lives and just encourage them.

Oh and my friend Keith offered to go snowboarding with me again, so hopefully this time I'll try a little harder and not fall as much. :D

Amazing How God Works.

It's funny how God works. So a few weeks ago I was asked to chaperone a snowboarding trip for my church's Youth Group. I said I'd think about it and make sure it's something I could commit too.

I wasn't too sure about going. I'm a big klutz (I sprained my knee walking in the snow) and the last time I went snowboarding I was in High School. It was more like messing around on a board on this sad little hill. I've been skiing but that was ages ago too. So I thought about it a few days and asked for more details.

So I told Ryan the guy in charge that I was game and I would go. As I was writing the message back I felt this random need to ask about worship and if he wanted me to bring my guitar. I was very hesitant at first cause I'm not very good a guitar let alone playing it and singing at the same time. I actually was having some anxiety about asking if I should bring it, because if he said yes then I'm totally screwed! Yup that was the thought process.

Well, Ryan writes back and he was just totally floored. He said that he was freaking out about it, he really wanted to do worship but didn't know how to do it. Within the last few days he felt that God was calming him down about it and that it would be ok. So when I asked about worship he was like that was the answer he was looking for.

I messaged back explain how I felt and now even though I'm still freaking out about it, I'm not having any anxiety about it. Because now I know it is a total God thing.

God's Amazing.

Needless to say I'm borrowing some snow pants because I'm expecting to be "sitting" in the snow, A LOT.