Sunday, June 29, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
So this morning I woke up to a bright red beam coming into my room. I'm not going to lie, I kind of freaked out, then I looked out the window to see that it was the Sun shining through the smoke that was causing the red sun beam in my room. I kind wish I was functioning enough to think of taking a picture of it and posting. But I rolled over and went back to sleep instead. Maybe tomorrow morning I'll do it, since this smoke is going to be a round and possibly get worse. I'll have to take some pictures and post it for you to see. It's insane! You can barely see the mountains.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Thursday, June 12, 2008
I don't get it! I ate healthy all day on Tuesday and I wake up the next day and it's 201??? Someone said it could be the fruit. There's no winning with this! Eat candy it's bad, drink fruit juice it's bad, eat certain fruits it's bad, eat carbs it's way bad! Ugh!
But I have been working out every day. I even started Curves Smart. It's cool, they give you this card that you put into the machines and it's programed to your age weight and how you manage the machine, so that every workout pushes you differently to help burn more calories. Also my friend and possible new roommate goes with me! It's nice.
So the other day, I went and saw Honda Civic Tour. It was ok. Going to secular music concerts always remind me how much I love appreciate Christian bands and artist. It always nice going to a concert where the bands aren't cussing, and "buzzed" on stage.
The concert was fun, I was excited for the chance to see Phantom Planet again. The last time I saw them was 4 years ago. Their new stuff is good, but I like their old stuff more. All the bands were pretty good and entertaining. Other than the slew of cussing and the mobs of drunk people.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
This Weeks Goals:
- Get Sugar levels under 150
- Go to gym every day
- Pay off overdraft fee with next Paycheck.
- Smash in as much work hours ass possible in three days. (at least 25hrs)
Todays Blood Sugars: 174
Yeah my sugar levels sucks, I've been doing so well at going to the gym and taking my meds, until the weekend came. Blah!
So I feel crappy, I need to move and get a different Job.
Here's been what's going on. So where I work now we switch from an office to my bosses home, which is outside of town maybe 15 to 20 miles. Not fun drive when gas is over $4 a gallon. I've been working part-time for this guy for almost two years, and every 6 months or so he tells me he is going to have me learn more about doing SEO or giving me more duties so I can have more hours.
Last semester I was so bogged down with school stuff that I could only put in 2 to 3 hours a day. I think he has come to like that, because well the company isn't doing to well and I do most of the monotonous stuff that nobody wants to do, but is "important" to do. Every since school has gotten out I've been asking for more hours. So what do I get in the field of more stuff to do? I get the tasks of getting the mail, cleaning, and taking the trash out, yup sure glad I'm working on getting a college degree for this work. Then last week I complained that I need more hours because of gas, guess what happens, my hours get cut. Now I go to work three times a week and work until I have no more billable time tasks to work on. He thinks he's being my gas money savior for it too.
For a while now I've been playing with the idea of getting a different job. I've applied to 6 now, I have yet to hear from any of them. So now Guess what happens. My Roommate decides to cash the last three checks I had written to her for rent (written three weeks ago), and groceries (one two weeks ago and one for last week). I thought she had cashed the checks earlier, Boy was I wrong.. Now I'm over $200 in the hole, I overdrew my account. I'm don't know whose fault is it more? Mine or my roommates? But I'm frustrated now, at my roommate, at my boss, and at all the people who haven't at least told me they're not going to hire me.
I hate money and how we need to to survive. Sorry for Griping. Just a little on edge lately.
God take all this away, I know you have a plan and that where ever I go you will use me. I am weak Lord. Less of me, more of you.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Friday, June 6, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
So here I am. I'm going to lay out my life for you and all the things that I want to do with this Blog. This will be one accountability source for me.
I'm horrible at disciplining myself, I'm so hypocritical about it too. I'm always the first person to point out other peoples flaws and yet awful at fixing my own. Isn't it wierd? You should pay attention at what goes through your mind when you have something negative about a person going through it, it will most likely be something that you are actually not happy with about yourself and you are comparing yourself with other people trying to build yourself up to not be as bad as that other person.
So here's what I'm bad at discipling myself at:
I often follow the ways of the world. Sometimes I get frustrated too, because people always say I'm this strong woman of God, or something like that. I get so frustrated because I think to myself when they say that, "Well buddy you should have seen how strong I was last night. Then you would think twice about saying that" I want to be that person that those people make me out to be. So my goals for this are:
- Read my bible daily - If I want to win this battle I need my defense weapon(Ephesians 6:10-18)
- Pray, Pray, Pray - Instead of freaking out when things go wrong, I want to be a prayer warrior that will reach out to God in my time of need, and in others time of need. (Psalm 5:1-3, Daniel 6:10)
- Worship - Making my whole life to be towards living for God. (Philippians 2:9-11)
- To Shine like Stars - (Philippians 2:14-15)
I'm diabetic, Type 2. So I'm not insulin dependent and I can monitor it with healthy eating and exercise. Problem is... I'm not. My A1C is 8.7% (it should be below 7%) and I have Kidney damage. I'm 24 years old and I'm apart of obese America. Joy! For the last two years, my excuse for not eating right was because of going to school full time and working 3-4 part time jobs. My excuse for not exercising is because by the end of the day I'm too tired. I'm not going to let that be the case anymore. My Goals for this are:
- Work Out - I just joined Curves (it's not just for old women!) So monthly I'll update you with where I'm at with it.
- Start eating healthier- So no more fast food, and eating burgers whenever I eat out.
- Don't eat out as much- I eat out a lot. It's my way of hanging out with friends, I often feel like I need to eat all of my food and order something with fries (Evil things! They are my downfall).
So there they are, the two areas in my life that I want to be motivated to change. So this is where this blog comes in. Here are the goals for this blog that will hopefully keep me accountable:
- Daily Update-
Actually it won't be daily, it will more likely be 5-6 days of the week, because I'm giving myself a sabbath from the internet (most likely Sunday and maybe even Saturday). Here I'll will *Gulp* show how awfully I am by posting my blood sugars. This will help me to see it daily and to actually test my blood sugars. What scriptures I have read for the day, and sometimes my thoughts on it, and a prayer list.
- Weekly Goals-
I will post Goals that I want to have set for the week. Things like: how many times I want to go into work out that week, How much money I can spend for the week, and so on.
- Monthly Goals-
Here will be goals for where I want to be in my weight and blood sugar levels. Plus any other longerish term goals I may have.
So there you have it. If I miss a post, then I know I've failed. So hopefully I won't. As this blog grows hopefully I'll have readers that will encourage me or be encouraged by it. Because I know I'm not the only one struggling with both of these things.
Thank You for reading and be Blessed!