Thursday, November 20, 2008

I'm a Murderer.

"For it is said in the bible that if you hate a person then it's considered murder"

We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love our brothers. Anyone who does not love remains in death. Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him. 1 John 13:14-15
This has always been something that I have struggled with, Hate. I just get so angry and bitter so easily. I've prayed over this for years, I had daily reminders to:
 "In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." Ephesians 4:26-27
Even the Basis behind Shine like Stars is a reminder to "not complain or argue" So every time I hear the phrase, "whoever hates a person it is considered murder" I freak out. There was one night where I broke down in front of my roommate and repeatedly called myself a murderer because our neighbors upstairs were being really loud and I said I hated them. 

God calls us to love one another like brother and sisters. Yet it is so easy to not say anything to that person and talk crap about them to someone else. I use to hang out with this group of people that was called "The S*!@ Talkers" and it was contagious. I still find myself doing it still even though I thought it would end when we dispersed.  

So tonight after spilling my emotions out to Pastor Steve I learned this, people even christians are still human and will make you angry in some form or the other in time. But instead of going to other people and talking crap about it take it to God. Pray about it, then talk to the person who made you angry. Or else it will just sit and fester within you, and it just brings the person you are talking crap to, down also.

1 comment:

Diana said...

I'm glad your pastor reminded you that you're human.

Before I welcomed Christ into my life and heart, the idea that Christians felt and acted like they thought they were perfect was a huge problem for me.

I can think of two specific examples when a Christian referenced being 'bad examples' of what Christians should be, because they were imperfect in some way. I'm certain my life history is full of this attitude, else where would I have gotten my pre-disposition prejudice against Christians?

In both examples, I told the persons (different people) "you're human - you're no better or different than me."

I dunno, I felt they were saying that because they're Christian, they're above [whatever it was], and that (they felt) this made them better than me.

As a Christian (new that I may be) I still feel very strong that I'm no better than anyone else in life. You know, on your blog template you've said "I'm not perfect and I struggle daily, but God still loves me." THAT is the attitude that I admire.

I'm not perfect either, and I struggle daily also, and God still loves me. THAT is an attitude I can stand behind. God loves us all, Christian, non-believer and sinner.