Thursday, January 29, 2009

Coffee Break

I'm two cups into my coffee break.
I'm sitting alone in the café from the way.
Reading all by myself
Turning my cell off just to breath
And everyone I know just keeps calling me.
And I just need a little time.

Cause I'm overcommiting myself.
I guess this is growing up
I'm sleeping so little these days.
I guess this is growing up
I'm feeling things are about to change
I'm guessing this is growin up
Yeah I'm growing up.

And my mom hates my guts.
She has every reason to
From all the things I do.
And it breaks me just to know
That I have torn her apart so many times.
So many times

Cause I've overcommitted myself.
I guess this is growing
I'm sleeping so little these days.
I guess this is growing up
I'm feeling things are about to change
I'm guessing this is growin up
Oh I'm guessing this is growing up

Now I'm done with my coffee break.
I turn on my phone.
Oh that I've grown up

Coffee Break Lyrics by Forever the Sickest Kids

I'm becoming a big fan of FTSK. I got to see them at Warped Tour, they have good fun CLEAN up beat music and Jonathan Cook is just absolutely the cutest thing. He sings, funny, cute, and Christian a total winner in my book!

So I was driving to work today and I finally took the time to really listen the lyrics of this song. It's funny how almost everything in this song reminded me of stuff I'm dealing with right now. I say almost everything in this song because I don't think my mom hates me. I'm sure I'm breaking her heart though. :^s

Sometimes Growing up is hard. Sometimes it hard to make decisions for youself without hurting others. Sometimes it's hard to follow Gods will. I'm still waiting for that feeling of, "You made the wrong decision! Turn around go back" to hit but it's hasn't. I know this is what God wants from me. It still doesn't mean I'm not going to freak out, cry, and loose it every once in awhile. I guess this is growing up.

It's hard to grow up when you hang out with a bunch of 17 - 22 yr olds all the time too.. haha 8^D Went bowling last night with some youth kiddies. Good Times!

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